Thank you for showing up ; thank you for being here almost on a daily basis.
Thank you for trying to protect me. I know you are only trying to help. I know you are doing it because you love me and you want me to be happy.
I think I can say that thanks to you I know fear pretty well.
My mind keeps running in circles, telling me how dangerous everything I want is, how stupid it is to think i can even try it, that I’ll never make it, that it is not how most people do it, etc.
My body is even helping my mind and resisting everything I want so strongly I have pain in my stomach and shoulders almost everyday.
So today I wanted to thank you for everything. But mainly I wanted to show you deep gratitude for showing me so clearly how I can limit myself and make myself so small.
So thank you, really, from my heart, for making me understand the power of my thoughts. Because obviously, it is something I have created. I am the one who decided to trust you. I am the one who has let you paralyze me on my path.
Well, dear insecurities, I have news for you. Today is the day we say goodbye to each other. I know you will try to come back. I know that you will want to keep speaking to me, that you’ll keep trying to stop me, to “protect” me. Well I wanted to tell you that you don’t need to do that anymore. I am safe. I know what I want and I am going to go and get it, because life is too short to live in fear all the time. You are going to have to trust me, believe in me and let me grow. And I know in the end you will, because I know you love me and you want me to be happy.
Today is the day I choose my dreams over you. Today is the day I become bigger and brighter, because I can choose my thoughts. And my thoughts can be bright and happy.
You’ve had your time. You’ve had your space. Now it’s enough. It’s time to move on. And I say this from a place of love. I am breaking up with you because our relationship makes me unhappy. I wish you well.