Dear insecurities,
 
Thank you for showing up ; thank you for being here almost on a daily basis.
Thank you for trying to protect me. I know you are only trying to help. I know you are doing it because you love me and you want me to be happy.
I think I can say  that thanks to you I know fear pretty well.
 
My mind keeps running in circles, telling me how dangerous everything I want is, how stupid it is to think i can even try it, that I’ll never make it, that it is not how most people do it, etc.
 
My body is even helping my mind and resisting everything I want so strongly I have pain in my stomach and shoulders almost everyday.
 
So today I wanted to thank you for everything. But mainly I wanted to show you deep gratitude for showing me so clearly how I can limit myself and make myself so small.
So thank you, really, from my heart, for making me understand the power of my thoughts. Because obviously, it is something I have created. I am the one who decided to trust you. I am the one who has let you paralyze me on my path.
 
Well, dear insecurities, I have news for you.  Today is the day we say goodbye to each other. I know you will try to come back. I know that you will want to keep speaking to me, that you’ll keep trying to stop me, to “protect” me. Well I wanted to tell you that you don’t need to do that anymore. I am safe. I know what I want and I am going to go and get it, because life is too short to live in fear all the time. You are going to have to trust me, believe in me and let me grow.  And I know in the end you will, because I know you love me and you want me to be happy.
 
Today is the day I choose my dreams over you. Today is the day I become bigger and brighter, because I can choose my thoughts. And my thoughts can be bright and happy.
You’ve had your time. You’ve had your space. Now it’s enough. It’s time to move on. And I say this from a place of love. I am breaking up with you because our relationship makes me unhappy. I wish you well.

Cette semaine j’ai canalisé beaucoup de messages autour des yeux.
Il y a eu d’abord des gens avec les yeux fatigués et irrités ; il y a eu des larmes ou des envies de larmes qui ne parviennent pas à sortir. Puis j’ai ressenti souvent pour moi et pour les autres un besoin flagrant de lumière et d’énergie à cet endroit ; et pour certains il y avait aussi ce fameux 3ème œil qui ne demande qu’à s’ouvrir mais que certaines personnes ne laissent pas.
 
Je sens chez beaucoup du déni, une envie d’entamer un changement mais un certain refus (inconscient ?) de voir les choses telles qu’elles sont.
 
Et toi, comment vois-tu en ce moment ? Et que vois-tu ?
Ton regard est-il porté sur l’extérieur ou l’intérieur ?
Ce que tu vois si facilement chez l’autre, n’existe-t-il pas aussi chez toi ?
Est-ce que tu fermes les yeux sur quelque chose que tu ne préfères pas voir ?
As-tu peur de voir quelque chose ? 
Voir demande du courage parfois.

Les yeux sont le miroir de l’âme. Alors quand tu te regardes dans le miroir, qu’y vois-tu ? Es-tu en accord avec ton âme ? As-tu envie d’y voir autre chose ? Que te disent tes yeux ?
 
Le message du cœur pour tes yeux dit ceci : « N’aies pas peur, tu peux ouvrir les yeux. Tout va bien et tout ira de mieux en mieux si tu acceptes de voir vraiment.  Pleure si tu en ressens le besoin, laisse couler tes larmes pour libérer le trop plein d’émotions ou de pensées. Et surtout vois la beauté de ton âme, qui ne cherche qu'à t'aider. Vois aussi la beauté autour de toi. »
 
Si tu sens tes yeux fatigués frotte tes mains quelques instants l’une contre l’autre et place-les sur tes yeux quelques minutes. Aide tes yeux à se reposer pour mieux voir.
 
Si tu as envie d’ouvrir ton 3ème œil, tapote ou masse la zone entre tes sourcils quelques instants, puis visualise un canal de lumière qui vient ouvrir ton front et créer de l’espace, quelques instants.
 
Quelques instants, seulement, chaque jour, suffisent pour prendre soin de ses yeux et voir, tout simplement. 

Sometimes it is okay to go backwards and make the same mistake.  It is okay because even though it is the same mistake you are not the same person and your take on it will be different.

As long as you are willing to learn and you take something from it  is okay to try again and again and to slip again and again.
Yes sometimes I also feel tired of trying and not getting where I want. Yes, sometimes I feel desperate.
I have done so much work on myself and still I am not quite where I want to be.
Yes sometimes I want to give up.

But then there is a bit of light and this voice that says: “You are okay. It is okay, you are getting closer. You are almost there. You are learning.  It is coming. And what you are going to get is so much better than whatever you can even imagine. We are just making sure you are ready to receive it all!”

So let me tell you what happened to me. Or rather what I let happen to me.
This year I have made it a priority to really love myself more, to be my own priority and to find real love.
Romantic relationships have always been a challenge for me. Sometimes I really think I am just not meant to be in one. But I deeply long for this complicity, partnership, intimacy.

In the past years, I have also come to understand that self-love is the basis for all emotional healing. I truly believe that accepting and loving ourselves, for real I the key to heal anything. And of course, it will be the key to find a great relationship too.

I have been working on myself for 12 years now, using all kind of tools, working on all levels of my being. And yes for sure I love and accept myself more now than when I was 18 or 27 or even more than 6 months ago.

But no I am not quite there yet. Let's be honest for a minute.  Who is? Maybe it takes a lifetime? I am still judging and criticizing myself. I am still not treating myself like I would treat my best friend.
Yet I do know  and I do feel that love is the answer.

I also know that I want real love in my life. From somebody else. But if I can't love myself fully how can somebody else?

A few years back I became aware of this pattern I had to basically start dating any guy who likes me. Because I had such low-self esteem, being liked was WOW! And even if I didn't like a guy very much I would go out with him and pretend I did.  Just to be loved…
Except of course that didn't work. Because I I wasn’t me and I wasn’t authentic.

So I worked hard on this pattern. And finally I thought I was done with doing this, after experiencing different kinds of relationships. It got better. It was still hard for other reasons but that’s not my point here.
I really thought I was finally over this pattern of dating somebody I was not really into, of lying to myself.

Then a guy showed up into my life. He was nice and generous, easy-going, and funny. I was feeling lonely. I was feeling sad. I wanted affection. I wanted to be touched. I wanted somebody in my life. I was happy he was into me. I was flattered. And I went back into my old pattern. I screwed up big time. I tried to make him aware that we didn't know each other that we should not rush things. And of course he has his part to play in this failed experiment but that is his path and here I am talking about mine.

So yes I did the same thing again. I made this mistake again.
But guess what! The difference is this time I was totally aware I was doing it while I was doing it. I tried to do little things here and there to change directions as we were moving forward. But it was not enough.
Because once again I was not able to speak up, to speak clearly enough, to speak loud enough. Once again I was not able to be me.
What I was able to do though, was to stop everything quickly enough before there was too much damage.
 
Yes I am hurt. I am sad. I feel like shit. I am disappointed.
But I choose to see the difference between who I am now and who I was when I was not aware of this pattern.
I choose to see I am not the same person. I also choose to feel compassion for myself, to be kind, to see that I have done my best.
I choose to accept my mistake, to learn from it and to try again, with this new lesson inside me.
And I choose to keep hope and faith.

Wanna learn how to become aware of your patterns and change them? Contact me

We are all made of energy. Your emotions, your thoughts are all energy. If you start paying attention to how you are feeling, you can notice how you feel whenever you enter place, or when you meet somebody. Do you feel better or worse ? It is that simple.
 
How you feel is of course linked to what you are experiencing in life, who you are and what you have lived before. But it is also connected to the energy of the place, the people or the elements that are present around you. If you are highly sensitive, you can even feel the energy of the city you live in, or even the world ; maybe you can also feel the vibrations of the Earth, the Moon or of the planets.
 
You vibrate at a certain frequency. The better you feel, the healthier you are, the higher the frequency. And others can also feel your vibration. In a state of homeostasis (balance) your vital energy (also called ki, prana or chi) flows easily and naturally. When you are stressed out, or if you have bad nutrition, a negative thought, an emotional shock, etc. your energetic system will start being unbalanced.
If whatever is shaking you off balance happens only once in a while, it is still good to rebalance your whole system by taking care of yourself (various options exist of course, and amongst them energy therapies)
If you are always stressed out or anxious, have experienced trauma or if you are highly sensitive, your system is probably very often off balanced. When your ki gets stuck, it creates excess of energy in some areas and voids in others, which
means your physical body can be impacted (pain, tension, disease, breathing isssues, etc.) Your mental state and psychological health can also be affected. Everything is connected.
 
Energy therapy helps removing blockages from the past and the present, filling in the voids and help re-activating your self-healing power.
We are all connected energetically. It is also possible you have caught energy from other people, that does not belong to you. It is important to get cleansed.
 
Face-to face or remotely, I connect to your energy to cleanse and balance it. Remotely i have the opportunity to connect directly to your energy field without being in contact with the physical body , which makes the frequency of the treatment higher and stronger ; the work will therefore be faster and deeper, working throughout dimensions and without limits from space and time.

Wanna try ? To book an appointment, you can use this link here or call me at  +41 79 128 32 62.  I will call you via Skype, Zoom or What's app (whatever is easiest for you) at the beginning of the session.
You just need to be a in a quiet and comfortable place, where you wont be disturbed, and make sure to have some water nearby.

Pour s’accepter et s’aimer, il est important de s’écouter et de se connaître. Aujourd’hui je voulais vous parler des émotions et notamment de la colère.
Etes-vous capable d’écouter et de reconnaître les émotions qui vous traversent ?

Nous sommes faits d’énergie.
Vos émotions, vos pensées ne sont rien d’autre que de l’énergie.
Si vous portez un peu d’attention à comment vous vous sentez, vous pouvez observer que quand vous entrez dans un lieu, vous allez soi vous sentir mieux, soit moins bien. Cela correspond à l’énergie du lieu et des personnes ou éléments qui s’y trouvent. Si vous faites partie des personnes très sensibles, il se peut que vous sentiez l’énergie de votre ville ou même de toute la planète, et que vous soyez aussi influencé par les vibrations de la lune et des autres planètes.
 
Vous-même vous vibrez quelque chose que vous envoyez aux autres. En état d’homéostasie (équilibre) votre énergie vitale (appelée ki, chi ou encore prana)circule de manière fluide. Quand un coup de stress, une mauvaise alimentation, une pensée toxique, la pollution, etc. vient vous perturber, votre ki  se déséquilibre. Même si vous vivez ces perturbations à petite dose, c’est bien de rééquilibrer votre ki régulièrement en prenant soin de vous (Diverses manières sont possibles, dont les soins énergétiques).
Si vous vivez en état de stress ou d’anxiété permanente, ou que vous avez vécu des choses traumatiques (même une petite chose peut être vécue comme traumatique par les personnes les plus sensibles), votre système risque d’être fortement déséquilibré.
Si votre énergie vitale est en déséquilibre, cela veut dire que votre corps physique peut être touché (douleurs, maladies, problèmes de respiration) et votre état mental et psychique également. Tout est lié.
Les soins énergétiques permettent de lever les blocages énergétiques, du passé et du présent, de combler les vides et de vous aider  à ré-activer votre pouvoir d’auto-guérison.

Tous les êtres vivants ont ce ki, les êtres humains mais aussi les arbres, les plantes, les animaux et l'univers. 
Nous sommes donc tous connectés au niveau énergétique. Il se peut d’ailleurs que vous récupériez sans le savoir l’énergie de certaines personnes. Il est important de s’en nettoyer.

En face à face ou à distance je me connecte avec votre énergie et effectue un nettoyage et un rééquilibrage. A distance, comme je me connecte directement à votre énergie sans passer par votre corps physique, la fréquence vibratoire du soin est plus élevée et donc le travail plus profond et souvent plus rapide.
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Vous souhaitez essayer ? Contactez-moi ou réservez votre soin directement ici. Il faudra juste prévoir un verre d’eau pas trop loin et vous mettre dans un espace où vous pouvez vous installer confortablement sans être dérangé (je peux vous appeler par What’s app, Skype ou Zoom)

Parfois il suffit d’une chose dans la vie pour que notre vision des choses bascule dans la peur, le doute et l’insécurité. Ensuite on commence à douter de tout et de rien, à trouver toutes les choses qui ne vont pas. On rentre dans un cercle vicieux et on justifie et renforce notre peur par tous les moyens. Chaque fois qu’on va voir ou vivre quelque chose, on va le vivre avec ce filtre de la peur et de la négativité. On est très forts pour s’auto-convaincre que rien ne ne va plus. Mais si on est très forts pour ça, ça veut dire qu’on devrait pouvoir aussi être très forts pour faire l’inverse, non ?
 
Comment sortir de ça ?
-Autorises–toi d'abord à trembler, à avoir peur, etc. Accepte que c’est comme ça pour l’instant, que c’est ce que tu ressens en ce moment. Laisse ton mental exprimer ses pensées. Essaie de ressentir dans ton corps physique ce qu’il se passe.
-Entame un dialogue bienveillant avec ton mental. Le mental n’est pas ton ennemi. Il essaie de te protéger. Demande-lui ce qui pourrait arriver de pire. Dis-lui que tu l’as entendu et écouté, que tu comprends ses craintes.
-Demande à ton mental de quoi il a besoin pour être rassuré.
-Rentre dans ton corps physique, observe où est la peur, la gêne ou l’inconfort. Intensifie cet inconfort pour l’accueillir et l’accepter pleinement. Demande à ton corps de quoi il a besoin pour être rassuré
-Demande ensuite à ton mental et à ton corps ce qui va bien dans ta vie et autour de toi, mais aussi en toi. Fais une liste, même si ce sont des petites choses. Ressens les émotions liées à ces petits morceaux de bonheur
-Demande à ton corps et à ton mental comment tu peux faire grandir ces petites choses. Petit à petit, reprend le chemin de ce qui te fais du bien.
 
Il ne s’agit en aucun cas de sur-positiver ou de nier les choses difficiles, mais de voir que tout est là, l’agréable comme le désagréable, et qu’à tout moment, je peux choisir où je dirige mon corps et mon attention, pour éviter de me perdre, ou revenir à de la joie, si je me suis perdue.
 
Besoin d’aide pour écouter votre corps, votre mental, vos émotions et retrouver votre chemin ? Contactez-moi, je vous accompagne volontiers

1. Choisissez une ou deux choses sur lesquelles vous aimeriez travailler, et répétez. Ne faites pas une liste de 50 thématiques différentes à la fois. Prenez un thème ou deux thèmes très liés et construisez vos propres phrases autour de cela. En effet, si vous vous éparpillé trop et que vous essayez de tout changer en même temps, votre cerveau ne comprendra pas ce qui se passe et ce qui est vraiment important. De plus, une croyance que vous avez construite et utilisé pendant 5, 10, 20 ans ou plus ne va pas se transformer en 5 secondes.  Il va falloir répéter le nouveau schéma, le tester et le laisser s’installer en vous.

2. Vérifiez que la ou les affirmations choisies sonnent juste et que vous y croyez. Au lieu d'être positif, soyez vrai! Pour cela, fermez les yeux, connectez-vous à vos sensations corporelles ; répétez la phrase choisie, laissez vibrer cela dans votre corps, et observez, comment réagit-il ? Etes-vous en accord complet ? Si oui super, vous pouvez continuer de répéter cette phrase. Sinon modifiez l’affirmation pour permettre une étape intermédiaire, en laquelle vous pouvez croire. Exemple : si vous travaillez la confiance en soi. Vous aimeriez dire : « je me fais totalement confiance » Mais cela ne sonne pas juste. Vous pouvez modifier la phrase de la façon suivante :
« J’apprends à me faire confiance. Aujourd’hui, je m’autorise à me faire confiance. Chaque jour, je laisse grandir la confiance en moi. Je m’ouvre à la possibilité de me faire de plus en plus confiance, etc. »
Ajouter un adverbe de temps, tel que « aujourd’hui », permet de faire descendre la pression.
 
3. Connectez-vous à vos émotions et à tous vos sens. Retrouvez une situation où vous avez domaine de votre vie où vous avez pu expérimenté ce que vous souhaitez obtenir dans un autre domaine, ou imaginez-le et projetez-vous dans la situation comme si vous étiez en train de la (re-)vivre.  Visualisez, percevez l’environnement avec vos 5 sens, écoutez, regardez, sentez, touchez, goûtez ! Amenez-y le plus de détails possibles pour permettre à votre cerveau de penser que ce que vous vivez est réel. Accueillez alors le sentiment et les émotions créés, les sensations corporelles provoquées et vivez les pleinement ; vous augmenterez ainsi votre taux vibratoire et pourrez alors transposer ces émotions et sensations à la situation de votre vie que vous souhaitez changer. Répétez vos affirmations en étant dans cette énergie. Si vous êtes capable de ressentir, vous êtes capable d’attirer à vous ce que vous désirez.

What is your soul whispering ? Are you listening ? Or are you turning the other way ?
For the past 3 weeks, I have been fighting with my soul because it wants me to do something that I find absolutely scary and completely irrational. And when I think about concretely how I would manage my life if I was to follow that calling, it just doesn’t make sense. Or rather, there is a lot of uncertainty.
However, I should know better. I have been there before. And after all I teach other to follow their dreams and desires. So what is this struggle about ? This ongoing struggle between the intuition and the mind that we all experience. I personally take it as a big lesson for myself, and also it makes me think that maybe I can support others in a deeper way.

Depression is not a dead-end. You can heal from it. I am proof of it, and I am surrounded with other examples of people who have experienced it and are now healed.
 
First of all, it is important to let go of clichés. Everyone can have a depressive episode in their life. Depression was still taboo a few years ago ; nowadays people are more open to talk about it, like for burnout, but maybe still not enough.  Hence why I am writing this.
 
It’s also wrong to say that somebody « is » depressive and that because they have had an episode, they will have relapses all their life.

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​It’s also crucial to differentiate depression from deep sorrow and not to get on medication without having done a proper diagnostic. I am not against antidepressants, i do believe that if well prescribed and used temporarily, they can support the person who is suffering to get  back on track ; however without another kind of treatment to complement medication –which is only helping with symptoms- to find out the cause of the illness, there will be no permanent healing, only a band aid.
There are many options to treat the causes, of course. But they all require to be willing to look deep inside ourself. It requires to be brave and willing to dig into our shadows, which one usually wants to avoid. And yet, these shadows are what will help us find the light again. So we need to learn to love them and accept they are part of us.
 
Depression could be cut into two words : deep – rest. It can also make us think of the opposite of « pressure ». Basically it is simply a call for change…
 
I remember starting having depressive episodes when I was 19, when I started university. I might have had some before but I can’t know for sure. I just remember being sad very often.
 
In any case, at 19 I honestly refused to work on myself. I wasn’t brave enough. I didn’t know myself. I didn’t trust psychiatry and I suffered for over  a year, wanting to die, spending hours in bed, having panic attacks, and no desire or ability to confide in anyone. I was unable to speak about my feelings, my voice was blocked.  I drawn myself into my studies to forget and hide my pain.
When I started my second year at uni, things got slightly better. I survived and was able to pretend that I was fine for a few years.
The second time I had an episode happened when I was living in Spain. I was 24. I then started taking antidepressants, and doing sophrology. It only helped a bit and my state actually got worse. My panic attacks were paralyzing. I had no choice but to quit my job and go back to France to live with my parents. This crisis lasted a long time, even though I managed to pretend otherwise. After a few months at my parents I moved to Switzerland, started a new job, made new friends, met somebody, etc. I thought that my issues would go away by starting fresh. I was fooling myself of course and even though I was seeing a psychiatrist for a while, I wasn’t doing the work. I was just scratching the surface.  I was avoiding my problems by working a lot, and also partying and drinking a lot.  I was unable to go and look into these shadows that I am talking about above.
 
Then a year later I started going down again and reached rock bottom.  First I was diagnosed with irritable bowel syndrome (the body always speaks!), then a burnout and finally the most serious depressive episode of my life. I finally found the right psychiatrist for me, and other tools which helped me open up and start acknowledging the problem and expressing my feelings.  I also started to understand the behavioral patterns I had put in place over the past 10 years: fleeing and avoiding… moving to another country, another job, another relationship, etc. But until you actually really look into the mirror and dig in, your issues will always follow you around.
 
Treating depression requires a lot of bravery. But it is possible. It means you need to be ready to look deep inside yourself, to see where it comes from, to welcome all your emotions, to look at them, to let them be and express them before digesting them.
I had a great psychiatrist, I started meditating, then i discovered different tools to take care of myself and learn to know who I was. I became more self-confident, I learnt what I wanted, what brought me joy, and how to nourish myself and get out of negative patterns.
NLP, EFT, Reiki, hypnosis, meditation and biodanza are some of the tools that helped me do the work. It took me two years to get out of it and start a « normal » life. I never relapsed. I am extremely grateful for this part of my life as it has now been 10 years of walking on a path to get closer to myself, to work deeply. I am happier and happier every day, i stopped surviving to really start living, to enjoy every moment, even the painful ones, and to basically say yes to life !
 
If you are not doing well and you need support, I am happy to walk along the healing path with you, to help you find inside you the resources you have to get out of this disease.
 
I strongly recommend you tried my « Say Yes to Life » package.  10 sessions to find joy again. If you are having doubts about what is going on with you, contact me to have a 30-45 min long free chat. We can discuss a treatment plan together.