My heart was torn apart. Big time. Like never before. It took me a while to get over it, to recover. But you know what ? I don’t regret it. Because this time I consciously decided to keep my heart fully open, in spite of the pain. I opened up to receive love like I had never done in the past, and I showed up as me, the real me. And this I will keep. I will not go back to pretending to be somebody else to be loved. This is one of the greatest lesson for me in 2016.
In 2016 I quit a job that didn’t match my values anymore ; it took me a long time to decide because I was torn between my rational thinking and my intuition, between my guilt and my desire, between my fears and my hopes. Once again ! But my body wouldn’t let me lie to myself anymore. « Enough ! », it kept saying. You are needed somewhere else. You know better. My body, my dear temple, how I have mistreated you. I am so sorry. I thought i had understood how to listen to my body more carefully. How wrong I was ! My body reminded me that it knows better, that I can trust it ALL THE TIME and that the faster I listen to it, the faster I learn, the faster I can move to the next stage. I will not make that mistake again. In 2016 I met people who are involved in beautiful projects, who are working towards solutions to improve the way we live, who have beautiful visions and are moving forward with them. I met people who show up everyday and shine their light over the world. They inspire me and I hope I also inspire some people. In 2016 I met people who are struggling, but who keep hope and faith, people who are grateful for the little things they have. In 2016 I met people who struggled and who wanted to die. In 2016 I wanted to die at some point. I met people who had lost hope and faith, people who were desperate, afraid, sad, angry, exhausted. I was all those things too. In 2016 I had moments when I thought I was going backwards. I doubted myself so much. I doubted the world. So after a lot of resistance I finally accepted to rest for a while. I survived this phase and it actually made me stronger. It showed me how to help better those who have lost faith and hope. By stepping back for a while, I bounced back and I actually took a bigger leap. In the end I chose to live instead of surviving. I am not the same person I was a year ago. And I think I am a better person. I am expanding. And I know you are too, even if you don’t feel it. I know there will be more challenges ahead, but I know the challenges are helping me find who i want to be and be that person. Sometimes, I am tired, I am even exhausted. I think that I have done so much work on myself already ! When does it stop ? Well 2016 made me realize that it doesn’t. There are some great moments, there are some very painful moments. As I keep peeling the layers, I find myself a bit more, Iunderstand myself a bit more, I know myself a bit more, and I find meaning, direction and I keep moving forwards. When I think I have understood something, the universe sends me a test, more or less enjoyable, and sometimes I don’t get it right away. I try to enjoy the path, because that what life is about for me. Yes there are some tough times, but that is how I learn, that is how I grow. And that’s also how I meet new people. As I connect more deeply to my values, to my fears but also to my courage, I connect more deeply with other human beings who are on the same path. And it is also how by learning what I don’t want anymore, I find out what I want more of. And it helps me focus on joy, love and faith. So out of all the ups and downs of 2016, I hope I can and I will choose to remember faith, joy, laughter and love ; and I hope I can continue to help people see through the sadness and sorrow, that life is worth it, that together we can be powerful, joyful and shine LOVE.
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